| Tuesday, August 02, 2005 |
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I hate myself. I hate myself when I force my soul to enjoy things just for the sake of it. I hate myself when I do things because everyone says they're fun. I hate myself when I dont do things that I know would make me feel better. I hate myself when I post that smile on my face even when I am dark inside. I hate myself when I wish for things which are impossible. I hate myself when I lose control.I hate myself when I long for a person who will never be there. I hate myself when I assume that things will get better. I hate myself when I get that feeling wherein my heart becomes heavy and it starts sinking. I hate myself when I dont realize that just emotions are not enough. I hate myeslf when at the end of the day I find myself alone cribbing here. I hate myself when I run away from responsibilities. I hate myself when I am on an ego parade. I hate myself when I realize that I have not done anything worthwile. I hate myself for not fighting hard enough for things I really want. I hate myself when I realize that most of my thoughts revolve around one person. I hate myself for being me. 11:47 PM |