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Saturday, July 31, 2004

Mujhse Shaadi Karogi!!!

NOOO......its just the movie's i saw today...not smthing i said to smone :P
the movie is a real cartoonapa, dunno wat it means..but its fun, typical david dhawan..but and a big BUT...pretty gud ...not like his other govinda,ramya..rambha, simran..etc..movies...totally hilarious..total masti..

gals!..go watch the movie..salmaan khan will make the movie Paisa Vasool for u..wat Julie has failed to do..with the guys..:P..that was a PJ!!...

hmm...shud i leak the small suspense of the movie.?..shud i tell u who all join the party in the climax..shud i tell u that it has that "paint the cat's tail scene" of Meet The Parents....what Gaylord Focker (ya..Ben Stellar!.)did to his wud be father in law....Sameer (Khan)..did the same....and shud i tell u that Priyanka Chopra rocked in some scenes...although i fail to understand what made her do her after bath antics and gymnastics..with the window open ..so that the guys can have a party watching..infact..Sunny..watched her while he sipped his whiskey..:)..kab aayenge mere din ..hmm..

yeah..so coming bak ...our herione in the movie party on the beaches..is a fashion designer..wears the most happening clothes..(ok..revealing too :D)..she also comes out to her well maintained terrace garden for the excercises..she has a yellow car..her father drinks champagne and rums in every other scene..BUT..he can not afford to give her 20k bucks for a fee..which is like..raani's sapna..!!!!...this is ladies and gentlemen..OUR BOLLYWOOD..:)....but we luv it...i luv it coz my weekends are not boring.:P

the climax scenes are really well shot and directed..infact i shud say very well thot of...

arre haan....there is apni BIJLI too in the movie...what ...what did u say??...bijli who??..ok...kaanta laga..hai laga...yeah...shefali jariwala got a bed scene with the dude khan..she is bijli.

i rate it ***









9:02 AM

Thursday, July 29, 2004

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pata nahi kya kya karwa rahen hain..
today was just another day at office. I am now comfortable with the web layer coding..tomorrow i hope to start off with the JSPs ..i think i am on track..

haan one thing abt the morning..

6.30 am : my mobile alarm rings. i switch it off before it completes one cycle...
Me: "Rikhil..utho..."
Rikhil: "uhmmm..aaann..zzzzZZZZ"
Me: "saale..accha..aan...umm...ooon...zzzzZZZZZ!!!"

8:20 am
Me: "oyee rikhil uth..abey uth..uth jaon...9:00 baj gaye.."
RIkhil: "so jao na...jaldi kya hai..sahi sahi batao time kya hai.."
Me: "8.30.."
Rikhil: "bus 1 min aur..zzZZZ!!"
Me : "aannnachaaa..thik hai..zzzZZZ"

9:10 am
Me :"uth abey ab to uth..ho gaye ek min..uth @#$@%@%!@$^$^"
RIkhil :" 2 min aur...tum utho na.."
Me: "nahi tum utho.."
RIkhil: "ruko fir..bus 5 min.";
Me: "uth jaana be der ho rahi hai.."
Both:"zzZZZZzzZZZzzZZZZzZZ"

9:30 am
Me: "yeh galat hai be..roz roz ki yehi kahani hai...itni der tak nahi sona chahiye..utho be..kuch kaam karo..subah ka waqt utilize karo..hadd hai..mujhe bhi der karate ho..utho!!"
Rikhil: "abey mere ko jaldi nahi hai..office ki..tum jao na..utho .."
Me: "kal se main uth jaonga..tumhara intezaar nahi karoonga..kya befkoofi hai be..tumhaare chakkar mein late hota hun."
Rikhil: "dekh lenge kal..dekhte hain be..bahut uchal rahe ho...waise yaar itna nahi sona chahiye..8-9 ghante baap re..kal se utha dena be."

10:05 am
Rikhil: "jao be jaldi naha ke aao..bhago be..hurr..chalo be.."
Me: "uhnn..haan.."

10:35 am
Both: "BHAAGOO....der ho gayi."
Me: "aaj kya bahana maroonga be??'..
Rikhil: "gate kholo bhai..bike to nikal le"
Me: "ab gate bhi kholo inke liye.."

Bike: "ghurr..rr..un..."

Off we go.:)




10:23 AM

Roof Top Party!!!!

The Roof in consideration here is the roof of my office building :P..and the party in question was a small get together party..so that the new joinees in the project know each other.some updates from the PMs and old employees..their experiences..etc..and Drinks!!
..
well ..some how..i was in the planning team of the party..meaning we had to decide what to do with the ppl who come to the party..!!..arre baba..bus kaise bhi time pass karna hai..

some small games..some skit..some jokes...funny incidents..what else?..yeah..prizes for ppl who do well in these..

jus came to know that one prize is left...and it will be distributed among the ppl who were in the PPT..(Party Planning Team)..cool na..

the leader of the PPT is a fundo person..as far as my understading oh him goes..anubhav is a IIT D pass out..4 years in tavant..and his passion for the job is still unmatched..he tells us..that wen he joined the company ..there were only 9 others..(now we have 650+)..and the company was called HAATHI.com..coz the founders broke off from junglee.com..
anubhav is actually a US employee..heez now shifted to india..coz its more fun working here..uuhmm...let me go to US..and let me decide myself..:P.

one thing he says about US ...."there is lot of natural beauty in US..and available too" :D

after the dinner..and all the speeches..some 10-15 of us..just chatted ...and chatted..and chatted..and got bored and went away to our homes..

ya..while we chatted..we came up with seven categories of men
..they were exactly like this.
1. jinki shaadi ho chuki hai
2. jinki ladki fix hai..date fix nahi hai
3. jinki date fix hai..ladki fix nahi hai
4. jinki date aur ladki dono fix hai
5. jinko ghar walo pe bharosa hai
6. jinke liye "ummed pe duniya kayam hai"
7. baaki jinka "kuch nahi ho sakta"..






1:34 AM

Tuesday, July 27, 2004

Missed Call

its tuesday morning..she must be home by now..infact she must have been there by monday eve...so wherez the missed call?..is she fine?..I sms: "You got there na?"..
after 7 minutes..i get the missed call.
did she realize that she jus made my day :)..aaj to code sahi se likha hi jaayega..no doubts..come on you 'action classes'..come on you 'web beans'..I am READY.

9:40 AM

Struggling Monday and TDM

ppl are reading my blogs..fans gaye beta...now i'll have to continue..:(..ok ok..i will..but its really difficult..now when i'll write..this will always be at the back of my mind..ppl are reading this..but then the fundamental question..."to bhaiya kaahe likh rahe ho??...bahut mahan hain aap to..aap to is duniya se uppar hain.."..no..no..am not..am normal...i am very much a part of this materialistic *duniya*...

Some days can be tough professionally too.("too" coz other days can be tough in other ways also..first i thot its obvious ..but.. )...monday was one such day..it took me the whole day to figure out that to write web beans i need to first create instances of objects in the WebAction class and use the getters and setters in the other Action Classes..my achievement for the day was that i wrote a class for all the constants to be used..and ya...wrote two blogs..so..

.monday evening was just another evening..dinner and go to bed.. made a half resolution for tuesday.."kal to code sahi se likhna hai yaar"...

TDM?..here it goes

"Hi.I hope this is not a shock.I tld u na ki smthin is happenin to me.its u.just cant kp u out of my mind.this is wierd.i am unable 2 contrl myslf.i had 2 tel u this.hv no option.not the first time i am feelin this abt u.it goes long bk.i thot its nothin but jus boy girl attrction.but u kp comin bk n this time it is so strong tat i cant kp myself normal.i thot its best to tel u.atleast smthing will happen.Feel really uneasy when i do not get to talk to you.
I just want you to know that i care for you.think about you all the time.want to keep you smiling n happy.cant believe that this is happening with me.coz i always thot i cud control my emotions.i was wrong.six years is a long time. i thot i will get over it.cud never do tat.life is strange.after six yrs u ought to know all this.No one has ever put an impact on me like u have done.can go on n on..n ya i do not expect anything. I wanted you to know al this."

TDM = THE DIVINE MESSAGE

divine coz smthing made me stand outside a temple at kormangala for 15 mins ..when i waited for the reply..
It never came.
HE exists??


3:21 AM

Monday, July 26, 2004

Sunday and the Pakis !@#!@$

woke up late ..sunday morning..bhaiya's place..nothing to do..wow!! wat a day to start off..ideal in the life of a just passed out college grad..to add more there is this wonderful tea straight from bhabhi's kitchen...to add still more to the day .my horoscope for the week says that..i will win friends both in the family and at workplace WITH MY TACT AND C*H*A*R*M..yes ladies and gentlemen..come to me..come..and be my friend..i will win you over..i have "IT IN ME"...lol ..:P..see how crazy i can get..ganesha also says that this is my birth month..very true..it is..and i am waiting for my b'day for two reasons..one that i will get to meet my dad that day..after more than 2 months..second that she may call..
wow!!!...see wat happened..i was thinking that this a very gud point in this blog to have a song which says.."she keeps coming back.."..and i googled...the first link..(azlyrics.com) gave me this..and it fits in perfectly..i have never listened to this..dunno whoz the music composer ,singer...musicians..nothing.
but i know the lyrics fit in well here..so here it goes..


"She Keeps On Coming"

Front and centre
I don't know how it happened then
I can't explain it
What was she thinking of when
Mother Nature
She put us both together, and
The way she touched me
And I ran that red light and so I
Said I love her
She tell me I don't matter
I try to kiss her
But every dream is shattered
No early warning
Except the morning after
Look in the mirror like a rabbit in the headlights

She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more
Champagne and roses
Breakfast in bed
Wrapped in each other
And out of my head
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more

Oh no
Oh no
Yeah
Oh no

She ain't no Cleopatra
I ain't no Julius Caesar
I ain't no Casanova
She ain't no Mona Lisa
She charm a nation
She send you out to die
And we were flying when she ran that red light
I ain't no Valentino
She ain't no Greta Garbo
No Aphrodite
I'll never be Apollo
But when we come together
There's no one else can follow
There's no tomorrow when we run that red light

She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on knocking at the door
Drunk on desire
Erotic delights
Sooner or later, she'll kiss you goodnight
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more

Oh no
Oh no
Oh no
Oh no

Midnight
Die in the arms of a lover
Hold tight
I close my eyes and she's gone
Dream time
She's mine
Always here
Small town
Daytime
Disappear

She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more
Drunk on desire
Erotic delights
Sooner or later, she'll kiss you goodnight
But she keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on knocking at the door
She keeps on coming back for more
She keeps on coming back for more


hehe...cool na..i know nothing abt this song but it appears here..another example of me going crazy.

india paki match...india batting..going down..no hopes..will they get the bonus point??..and therez a black dog in the field..and our very own ravi shastri comments "ah..here ia an extra fielder on the ground" ..yepppy!!..so he means that other fielders are dogs too..and is it a coincident that pakis are fielding.??..black dogs ..the pakis..hehe..ya Mr. Ravi Shastri is 100 % indian..no doubts..:P

india lost the match...got the bonus point..sehwag is doing nothing after his marriage except dropping catches and giving catches...
hmm..

3:49 AM

Wet eyes and the Party

i did not go to the station to see her off..I could have actually went and just said gud bye ..but i did not..again no reasoning behind it..it just happens..

very strange. i cud feel smthing in my eyes when I realized that i am actually not going..it was evening and i had not called up or even smsed to say gud bye..but 1 hr before the departure time..she smsed me..that sheez leaving and take care..

i calld up..said the same things to her...take care by bye...no other words came out of me..so i hung up..i think sm where deep down i dont want her to know how vulnerable i can be..i cud have said anything..but just hung up to avoid it..

later smthing made me sms here once again..that plz tell me once u get to ur home..that u got there fine..i got to know frm her reply that i'll have to wait for a missed call frm her for that..:O

thats abt it..then in the same evening i went to a birthday treat from my cousin brother..he and his frens were drinking away to glory and i was having fruit punch and bites of chilli chicken..no no..its not that I do not drink or I am a hard core non veg...i drink..but only when it is absolutely neccesary..coz i dont find any pleasure in it..i think its just abt the excitement..that MAN!...i am drinking..:P...and ya i was just tasting chilli chicken to check if i can eat the stuff when i have nothing else to eat..hehe....there were the usual paneers and rotis and raitas..etc..
bhaiya's frens were really cool and funny once they got going..as soon as they were told that i am a btech from an engineering coll..they were after me.."yaar aisa nahi ho sakta ki tu pita nahi hai..pi le yaar..dekh kya raha hai..chal le le.."..i did not want to drink..so did the usual no no..then bhaiya was also like .."kapil yaar kaafi umeeden thi tumse..ek sip le lo..khushi ke liye.."...hmm had one sip of bacardi white rum..was cool..felt warm inside once it went in..did i tell that bhabhi was there too ...and she was.."arre peeta nahin hai to mat pilao na"..
..was really tired that day..and it was already 1:00 am ..went to bhaiya's place and slept..umm..umm...zzzZZZZZ....it was actually in the morning i realized that after many days i went to sleep without first thinking abt her for hrs..even that nite i thought abt her..but for 5-10 mins ..ki when i'll talk to her next..will she call me on my bday?..wat will i say?..shud i ask if she missed me even a bit..is she feeling smthing??.. will i get my answers?..and lo..i was sleeping...thanks to the tiring day..i hope all my days ends are like that...dont want to give myself any time to think abt her..





1:00 AM

Saturday, July 24, 2004

She..

They say, you *start* blogging when you are either too happy or too sad..or when something very different is happening with you..and then when it eases out..u continue blogging coz u have started it. :)..u start blogging when u are overloaded with thoughts..they're like a tap without a washer..leaks all the time..and who ever u find can listen to u..u just tell him/her..coz its just too much for ur brain to keep..u want the flow to be there always..so that there is always space for new thoughts..and then there comes a point when u have the sacred realization that ppl might not be interested in ur overflowing thoughts and feeling.Full Stop. You *start* blogging. :)

And here comes the declaration...the declaration of the millenium..**I START BLOGGING NOW**...

so what it is?..wats happening with me?...ok to be true..i am not myself..when it comes to her..i am not myself..cant control myself..

more than that I think why it is all happening with me..was i meant to undergo such pain..on the other hand i am thankful to HIM for making me feel a unique feeling..a feeling of a life time..i hope next time it happens..(ah!! next time..??..noway)..ya so i hope next time it happens i am able to control myself...now i am not able to see and think beyond, what is being shown to me..i hope smday i will get my answers..


today she is leavin the town and does not want me to come to the station so that i can explain to her..wat she means to me..i dont want to see her when she does not want me to..she talks to me ..fine..but why do i get a feeling that she is just doing that for the sake of it..are we frens?...i hope she is not playing with me..she says we are frens..but i hope she means it..i do not know wat will i do ...will i go or not..will i get to c her or not..i dont know..i think once again it will be based on my instincts..coz thinking and planning in this matter is not possible for me.

I am mostly a positive thinker..everything that happens..happens for gud..but wat gud is coming out of it??..i cant sleep..i cant work..i cant eat well..i cant think abt nething else..i am not normal..i am afraid of being alone..coz then all kinds of thots come to me..then wat gud?..well may be in the long run..i will realize that it was indeed for sm gud..

saw spiderman-2..liked it..at least better than the first..the story moved fwd quite a bit.Mary Jane now know whoz peter parker..and the new villian is ready ..so wait for the third was the final message u get frm the movie..apart frm the some really well shot action scenes..esp the train scene..

one of my frens just told me that Smallville (the supermans serial) will now be aired on star world..in india we get star world..so i may get to see another superhero serial..it was previously being shown on WBTv...i wonder which season they'll show...the story has moved fwd quite a bit in this one too...

hmm...so these are the minor things i think abt when i do not think abt the most happening phase of my life..i keep coming back to it.

I HOPE I GET OVER IT VERY SOOON.








1:53 PM



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