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Monday, July 26, 2004

Wet eyes and the Party

i did not go to the station to see her off..I could have actually went and just said gud bye ..but i did not..again no reasoning behind it..it just happens..

very strange. i cud feel smthing in my eyes when I realized that i am actually not going..it was evening and i had not called up or even smsed to say gud bye..but 1 hr before the departure time..she smsed me..that sheez leaving and take care..

i calld up..said the same things to her...take care by bye...no other words came out of me..so i hung up..i think sm where deep down i dont want her to know how vulnerable i can be..i cud have said anything..but just hung up to avoid it..

later smthing made me sms here once again..that plz tell me once u get to ur home..that u got there fine..i got to know frm her reply that i'll have to wait for a missed call frm her for that..:O

thats abt it..then in the same evening i went to a birthday treat from my cousin brother..he and his frens were drinking away to glory and i was having fruit punch and bites of chilli chicken..no no..its not that I do not drink or I am a hard core non veg...i drink..but only when it is absolutely neccesary..coz i dont find any pleasure in it..i think its just abt the excitement..that MAN!...i am drinking..:P...and ya i was just tasting chilli chicken to check if i can eat the stuff when i have nothing else to eat..hehe....there were the usual paneers and rotis and raitas..etc..
bhaiya's frens were really cool and funny once they got going..as soon as they were told that i am a btech from an engineering coll..they were after me.."yaar aisa nahi ho sakta ki tu pita nahi hai..pi le yaar..dekh kya raha hai..chal le le.."..i did not want to drink..so did the usual no no..then bhaiya was also like .."kapil yaar kaafi umeeden thi tumse..ek sip le lo..khushi ke liye.."...hmm had one sip of bacardi white rum..was cool..felt warm inside once it went in..did i tell that bhabhi was there too ...and she was.."arre peeta nahin hai to mat pilao na"..
..was really tired that day..and it was already 1:00 am ..went to bhaiya's place and slept..umm..umm...zzzZZZZZ....it was actually in the morning i realized that after many days i went to sleep without first thinking abt her for hrs..even that nite i thought abt her..but for 5-10 mins ..ki when i'll talk to her next..will she call me on my bday?..wat will i say?..shud i ask if she missed me even a bit..is she feeling smthing??.. will i get my answers?..and lo..i was sleeping...thanks to the tiring day..i hope all my days ends are like that...dont want to give myself any time to think abt her..





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