| Friday, August 20, 2004 | |
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here it goes.. Are people very Strange??and why do they act so wierd??Does love exist?? This is a sad story of my life. Or rather call it a wierd tragic end...I knew a girl from past 11 years, from way back in school, We weren't talking much those days but got to know each other pretty well once we finished our schooling. I used to like her from the starting but held back myself from letting my emotions, because i didn't want her to get away from her goals in life. Years passed by and jus recently about a year or so, she started to like me (thou she never told ME in person). We got so addicted to each other that there was no day tht we didn't talk. we used to call each other, sms each other and even chat online. Then one final day i came to know from one of my friends that she liked me a lot and even wanted me to get along with this relationship and told him that she would wait for 3 months and if i don't propose to her within that time she would let go and stop thinking about me tht way(let me remind you, we haven't spoken about this at all). she had asked him not to tell anyone about this, but that fella being a very close friend of mine had to let out things with no other options left with him. so i gotto know about it and i got pretty close to her. i still remember those days when we went for a movie togeather, walked in a park holding hands and sat together chatting for hours together. i still remember each and every single word we talked, each n every special momemt we shared those memorable moments are still fresh in my mind. We understood each others feeling very well and we each other knew what we were doin and how much we were contributing towards the relationship. But then too i had not proposed to her thinkin i could have done it later with much bigger plans, but fate had someting else in store. One day her dad expired and everything went awry. She didn't know what to do, she had her exams around the corner and she was very confused. I decided to stay with her all the while and thought of proposing to her later when everything had settled and when she was back on track. Then months passes by and things were ok with her life, i mean she has less problem and she was doing good as of then. Then one day i decided to tell her (propose) how much i loved her and how much i cared for her. She was busy the whole week, so i chose friendships day to break to ice to her, but unfortunately she was busy on that day also. Without wasting any time i msged her saying i needed half n hour of her day to talk to her, but got a replying saying it was impossible and i could tell her wat it was by calling or by sms.So that day i smsed her saying i loved her very much and she was the most understanding person i've ever met in my life and that no one could come up to her. But she replied saying she didn't want to loose me as a friend and that she had other priorities in life and that it wasn't fair asking me to wait for her. That day my heart boke to pieces, everything from that day onwards became formal with her, i haven't talk to her as i used to earlier, i stopped visiting her for time being and things have changed very drastically. But till date i don't understand one thing, She liked me so much and she wanted me to propose to her n stuff, but after doing everything she wanted, why did she refuse to accept????Do people change so fast???? I just don't understand as to why all this happened since i never got a reason for that. I still think of her day and night and feel very sad to have lost her....I just wanted to tell her just once more that i really LOVED her very much :(. No matter where and how she is, i just want her to be happy.Should i go and propose to her again???I'm really confused rite now, n i need advice from whoever is willing to help. 1:40 AM |